心静自然凉

the 10.1 holiday is over, all get back to work,and I will start a new work and a new style of working.
there comes a new face in the company,a girl oh,no, a woman, with a little fat body.
she has lots to say, i feel a little boring, but luckly, the aim of her coming here is to recive the job what i am doing,i will get rid of TCL, i hate it!

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曾经想多点时间来写日志，可是最近不佳的心情和无言的危机感始终充斥着我的头脑，或许这还要持续一段时间，但是唯一不变的是，如果我再不用心的话，饭都没的吃了！

有朋友调侃我，说我总是把一些问题看的太严重，比如说大家都在说的吃饭问题等等，可是我却知道这其中的难处，具体甚么就不说了，重要的是我经历了，也懂得其中的道理。

 

阴霾的深圳，让人透不过气，虽然这几天凉了很多，我依旧睡着凉席，盖着床单，开着凉飕飕的风扇。我喜欢凉风并不是因为我想感冒，而是我想让自己混沌的头脑清醒一点。至于我睡凉席的原因却是很简单，那是因为我并没有找到可以垫的薄被！

 

转过头来，突然发现生活中已经没有什么娱乐了，每天的上班下班，上网，随便的吃饭，胡乱的睡觉，一切都有点牢笼的感觉。我渐渐发现我已经脱离这个所谓的社会，神游天下了。

 

明天醒来，这里写得都是白痴，还好，英文是白日写的，中文是刚才写的，白痴也是晚上的白痴，我要睡觉了，祝爱我的人和我爱的人晚安。

THE vacation of October 1, the golden week, as busy as at TCL. god bless me... 

In China, a man should not cry, if does, he will be laughed at by other people. if wants, he must find a place where there is no people first.and women have the special authority to cry in public places. in most people's mind ,women should be protected by men, they are effeminate and weak.
But are these who are called "men" really powerful and can't be defeated? i think many people especially men say "no"! It is a say in China:A MAN CAN'T CRY EASILY, UNLESS HE IS TOO SORROWED.

 A man is also a human, he also has many problems to solve,and will  meet many difficulties in the life, he may be helpless and doesn't know how to deal with. he will be weak ,ill and wants to cry like a child. Most men don't cry because they know there are many responsibilities on their shoulders.
I am a man, so i can't cry easily,I have many things to do, I have the responsibilities to earn enough money, to please my girl, to take care of my family,to help others and so on.
Many times when I was trapped by many problems,I told myself: be hard! I am the best one! When passed them, I found it was easy for me if I had enough courage.

 

A man also has the time when he feels weak,he also wants a shoulder to lay, I think a woman will be the best choice for him then:). The couple composed with a man and a woman is the all of the world. 

I don't think many Chinese people  can tell the differences between Mcdonald's and KFC, so do I. Last sunday a joke was happened to me,and it made me so shamefaced..

 

Last sunday, i had nothing to do ,finally ,i decided to go to North of HUAQIANG to look for some useful. then later in the afternoon , i got hungry, and wanted to got something to eat, fortunately, i found a Mcdonald's ,so i got in and took a seat.

"what can i do for you, sir?" a beautiful waitress asked me with a strange machine in her hands.

"e, i want 3 pairs of 香辣 chiken wings and a cup of cola."i answered.

"sorry, we don't sell 香辣 chiken wings, do you like to have a taste of 麦辣 ones?"with smiles on her face , the waitress told me.

when i heard this ,i got a surprise. then i knew the meaning of what the waitress had said at once. i was embarranssed.

 

I used to eat KFC, and hardly eat Mcdonald's , so i always ask for 香辣 chiken wing, 香辣 hamburge,but THAT DAY , i was in a Mcdonald's,it is so funny to ask KFC foods in a Mcdonald's!!

 

I changed my words immediately,and the waitress also quickly took me what i wanted , then paid for money , i escaped form that Mcdonald's shop.

it is hot these days, and often suddenly comes a storm.i know this is the summer of shenzhen, the city beyond the sea.

 

i woke up from the nightmare at the midnight yesterday.i went after her,but i couldn't catch up with her,the distance between us became longer and longer, i cried out and got up, when I found it was just a dream, there was sweat all over my body.i don't think i fear something, but i fear losting her very much, she is the most important treasure of me.

 

we usually want to do many things, but most do not get enough preparation. for example, we want to work hard to earn more many, but we are short of abilities, we want to study more ,but we have no smooth mood; we want to have a perfect family but we are easy to be angry... so to change the world, we should change ourselves first.

 

have you ever seen sun-rain? i saw it just now, the sun was shinning in the sky, but it rained indeed, a crowd of cloud floated above the buliding where i am working in. it was beautiful when i looked out of the window. with the sunshine, drops of the rain looked like a series of sparkling gold. If fortunately, i should see the rainbow in the sky, but i was in office, couldn't get out to see whether there was, i think i must miss it.

 

I love someone, I love my life.  That's all.

 

in my memory, the subway was started to work in 2005, it has been a long time since it worked, and  i had never taken it once.
in december 2006,I fired myself from TCL,I found a new job that i have done till today,but the office is far from where i lived.I must take the sbuway or bus everyday, from then on, I knew what the subway really looks like.

I like trains,they are modern and full of science and technology,and the most important is they never have a bad traffic and will never be late. 

 

sz's subway is very modern,and bright,and now more and more people take it everyday, to work or to other places.

the subway changes people's life gradually in shenzhen,and now ,we hardly see many people are eager to get on a bus.

it is a beatiful scenery in shenzhen,and it will keep on shine in the future

No matter human or animals, they all have emotion,we smile ,we cry ,wo are happy ,we are sad,what humen can do also can be done by animals.

I like cats,when i was very little, i held 2cats in our houses.There are two houses belonging to my family in the village, one house one cat.
We all know cats can catch mice to protect our rice. It is funny when a cat catches a mouse, the cat will not kill the mouse immediately,she will play the poor mouse for some time until the mouse gives up the ideas of escape.If the mouse always wants to escape, the cat will play it unmercifully until it can't move. then the cat will be tired, she will eat the mouse and take a comfortable rest.
It looks like cats are cruel,play the mouse then tired ,eat it, so bloody!someone maybe think it like this,but it is the cat's life,she likes eating fish ,but cats can't catch fishes in the water because cats fear water.luckly, cats have sharp born claws,that can catch mice easily.mice are pest,should be destroied(eliminated)!

 

OK,what i just said is out of the topic. cats that i raised in my childhood were very closed to me. When seeing me going back home from school,they were very glad and ran around me.i even held them in my arms when sleeping,when one of them died because it was too old,i wept..my childhood is full of happiness all because of these two cats. i like them up till now.

 

Dogs are also liked by many people,for example ,my brother ,but unlucky , my father ddin't allow him to raise a dog,so he could only play with the neighbor's.dogs are very allegiant(忠诚的)，they can go the rounds of the house to protect the fortune of hosts,even protect hosts' lives. so i never eat dogs ,though it is said to be very dilicious.

 

I like someone,someone likes me,this is the emotion, i like it,i feel it,i enjoy it. 

what i want ? i ask myself 

want free ,want money, want a family?

to tell the truth, i also don't know.

 

it is 8.22 today, since i came to this company ,i has been more than 5months,but i am nervous because i feel i have got nothing, maybe someone will tell me:"hi, guy, what do you want indeed? it is fine enough for you".

i have the responsibility that i must afford the cost of the family of mine in the future. i feel the pressure, even at one time ,i was afraid of it .

 

but now, it is clear im my mind, saying too many word is not helpful, what can improve our lives is only to do it accordding to our plans.

 

come on, man, you can do it .

 

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okay , let me talk about other things

 

it has been a bad weather in sz for weeks, today it rains, tomorrow it will be overcast, and it is very fuggy these days , i hate the weahter like this. the clothes can't be dry in the wet air,now i even don't know what can i wear to go to work.

today morning , it was a heavy rain here, though i had a umbrella, my trousers was wet completely,lucky in unlucky, i wear the sandals.

 

do you like instant pasta? i hate it , buy i must eat it ,for i can't cook myself. i often have quick meal off the duty , but i think it is not healthy and maybe do some undiscovered harm to my body, so the only choice left is to eat instant pasta. but i usually cook it with some fresh vegetables and eggs, so sometimes it tastes good,  and i eat it almost 10times a week.

most friends ask me how it is now , i just say everything goes well .

In fact, I also don't know what is the life like now,maybe i am waiting for something and somebody that are far away from me or nearly.

 

I have a dream,like many people's,having a big house ,ahead to the sea,in front of the house there are many flowers,and some big trees behind it,and there are a dog and a cat also.

when tired , I can have a rest in the shandow of the trees, when happy, I can play with dog and cat among the flowers.

this is the dream when i was a little boy,and now also the dream of  my life.

 

everyone says no money no good life,it is especially right,in shenzhen ,we can't be alive without money,but earning money becomes more and more difficult. cost of living is rising day after day ,but the salary is never improved---this is just a joke----and it is well-known that the income always depends on the ability of ourself.

 

the day before yesterday is the Chinese Valentine's day,wish all the people in love have a good endding as their will.